30 years old still still, I closed my eyes to get married over 20 years old, on the wedding night, he showed me something that made me depressed, wanting to immediately ‘run away and get married’

Before the wedding eagerly and expectedly, after the wedding night, I just want to leave for my biological parents.
I am 30 years old this year, but have only been married for 15 days. After the wedding, almost every bride is immersed in happiness, going on a honeymoon with her husband … But not for myself! Misfortune has beenfallen this woman too late!

I have a physical appearance, and is judged by my colleagues to be younger than my real age. Besides, I also have a stable job, the salary is enough for me to live comfortably. Reading here, many people will wonder: Why is the condition so good, am I getting married late? That’s because in the past, I used to fall in love with one person. But in the end he betrayed me, stole all my money to run away with another woman. That shocked me very badly. It took me a long time to stabilize. And since then I’ve always had a bad feeling about love. I have no intention of getting married. Because I feel that my life right now is fine. Sometimes going to weddings sees people being happy together, or seeing lovers on the street … I feel a little off. But I think it is better to stay like that than being betrayed and deceived. But I can’t overcome family pressure. I can’t bear to go back to my hometown, my mother cries out loud, saying that my family is blessed, and has a lovely daughter, not so bad that no one will be surprised. As for my father, my grandmother, and my relatives, I just urged me to get married for everyone who had grandchildren to hold them … In the end, I gave up, in peace to let my mother match up a husband. Through a professional matchmaker, my mother found me a man who turned fifty (50 years old). However, he has never been married. In contrast, he has a house, a car, and a decent job. In the early days of my dating, I was captivated by his politeness and profound understanding. Then, I quickly forgot my guilt, nodded in agreement to marry. The wedding took place just 2 months after the first meeting. Illustration. On my wedding day, everyone was happy, me too. I eagerly think about my new future. But things are completely contrary to my thinking. On the wedding night, her husband approached me with a lewd face that was completely different from his usual politeness. He touches me impulsively. I’m not used to it, put his hand away, say slowly, because we have never been so close. Finished he laughed, telling me: “The boat is built now, and the high bar is set up?”. I’m shocked! But not in time to regain his spirit, he pulled my hand sideways to another room. It had all sorts of sex toys out there – something I’ve only seen on the internet that I’ve never seen with my own eyes. “ My job is to be my wife well. If you know how to serve, I won’t let you down. Know it yet? Whatever you want ” – When he finished, he pushed me in and tortured me all night in there. In the morning, I frown on my face, my whole body aches and I can’t shuffle back to my room. But my husband considered not. He threw me a to-do list for me and said: “Now I have to go out. You clean the house, then cook. At 12 o’clock you have to have rice, everything should be decent. Especially the first floor, clean it up, the wedding day is crowded. You can walk, you can die. Well, you should quit your job, you have more money for you to live happily. And so from that day until now, I have been like an umbrella in the house. This board is cleaning, taking care of the rice. The evening serves his bizarre hobby. I take 10 days off, everyone thinks I’m happy, happy on my honeymoon. In fact, I’m so tired I can’t even crawl … Now I suddenly understand why my husband is never married at age 50. Perhaps no one girl meets his bizarre hobby and paternalism. I am a fool, deceived by your elegant cover. I regret it now. I want to give up everything about my mother, is that okay?